i feel so angry and frustrated...
and no one lets me turn on the fucking air con... waste of electricity is the reason....
let me ask this then... why not just shut off every little stupid fan that every single person seem to be hugging, and turn on one fucking air con??!!!!
ARGH!! FRUSTRATION!!.
adults, always think they're right.... all the stupid little fans are just blowing hot air, and all the fans combined wastes more electricity then one fucking air con.
--------------anyway.
stayed all night at mia's...
had to talk about some things on my mind... didn't know that it took so long, til the sun came up.
seriously getting to know Mia better and she is a pretty collected chick, or maybe we're still new with each other so she can still tolerate me..... time will come.
i feel like its been a long time since i could talk to some one, in the way that i can actually explain in my right pace...
lately i don't feel like what i say has been heard properly.. or has been expressed properly, because people or friends should i say, well... i don't quite know how to say this... give me a minute.
um, ok.
ok, with friends.. there are certain types of friends because i believe that you take on everyone differently.. bonds, trust and etc.
and for some that i do talk my mind to, i do it often so i guess they become a tad careless when listening? i mean like they do listen and take it is but not to full meaning and just be like, yeah yeah oh yeah i know what you mean, without actually thinking about it... and that always seems to cut me off and i don't get to say the rest of the story. and yes i do get frustrated with that.
and for the friends that don't know me too well, i just can't talk to them because of their judgment of me.
and plus, some friends read my blogs so they do know what's going on, and so what is the point of talking about it if they already know, and i don't like to repeat myself, but still, if you read what i write, it still doesn't give you the full effect of what i go through.
you can only understand to a certain point.
----------anyhow.
went to visit Lisa and her one month old son this morning, and he is adorable.
he looks so much like his father, so does that mean that i think his dad is adorable too? lol.
i like kids, at times they can be little brats but i like kids.
i think i enjoy the parenthood-ness.. though i can never do childcare as a career, i guess i can be a tad too rough on the kids so it's not good if it becomes a legal issue.
kids need to be taught,encouraged, punished and rewarded... in the right situations of course.. and not be spoilt little shits because the parents are too nice(or too lazy or cherish them too much or don't give a shit) to teach them a certain thing they do is wrong.
................there you go, i can be dominant at times, only for the right though so i will back down if i'm wrong(or because i am way too lazy to argue about it).
anyways, going to find a way to chill the fuck out.
remember to drink water.
