i wish it was that quiet, in my mind i have blocked out all the kids screaming and running around, demanding with games they want to play and they are sitting across the house yelling to each other.
they are still screaming....
blasted, i paid attention,
...and now i lost my thought....
argh, feelings.
.... do you think girls can get along without any sense of a competition at all?
actually, do you think anyone can get along that they become sync? complete and utterly sync?
with no competition, or dislike of flaws or envy etc?
with each other...
argh, how do you right click on a mac laptop?
never dealt with a laptop's exploration before, and now i'm thrown a mac... its so different from a pc - windows in general. in time, in time.
i feel so at home with a pc and i'm excited about windows 7, i got to install a demo version and it was so great, not 100% like of the new navigations but the system is great.
by getting a mac, i was hoping to have a great media operation, so i can bring it to work and work on the movie edits...
but i am so lost, so very lost.. i think all i managed to do so far is open a explorer for Internet and connect to msn... haven't gotten around to other things yet.
fucking fail.
i have finished my coffee, and the kids are friends again...
what i like about kids is how fast they can be friends again... it only takes a small distraction to get them talking again, a simple fascination.
i feel messy... haven't gotten ready for the day yet, only just showered...
i want a power shot, always feeling exhausted. i know why.... or i think its because of it... hahaha oh i'm just thinking naughty again... yea? yea? my thoughts? sex...
sex is always on my mind,.... i think, but you already know that.
i was watching the thing about a transgendered girl in Germany? name Kim, and part of it they raised the issue on how young or to set an age where the person can choose for themselves if they want to under-go treatment for changing gender, the age is 11 they say...
what do you think?
at that age, the early stages of their lives it seems that they are not comfortable with who they are and is disturbed by themselves, wanting to be other... and not really noticing their sexual life yet, so i want to know if they are really born in the wrong body?
at a tiny young age, how do they know if it's wrong, how do they know if having or not having a penis is wrong or right...
it was mentioned that a 3-4 year old boy tried to cut off his penis, so how does he know?
and when i tell people that i am bi-sexual or gay.... they often ask me if i ever wanted to be a boy... and i say no to that. i am gay, not transgendered.
people often get confused about gay and transgendered people, and to be honest i was too when i was younger, but i understood the difference and how to identify them.
i was also thinking about something else my friend has sent me, about attractions... and i never knew, never knew that there are scientific reasonings that are involved in ones attraction to another, like, when it happens, some chemical from the body is released and causes something and other things are released and causes something, and after a while that thing that was released has worn out and so you are not attracted anymore.........
interesting though.
