i went out hoping to find my Tila for the night, or moment...
though,
i didn't.
all i could do was think about her the whole time...
what's wrong with me, why am i so caught up again...
i wanted to visit her, but i hesitated and didn't go... if i went, then it would be wrong, i would be feeding the craving for her... i don't want to satisfy that urge because i will say its ok the next time and then the next time and the next... and then i will just be completely sucked into the place i was before.
that place was painful, ouch.
you know what i feel like?, i feel like i'm on a diet...
she is like something i would crave and eat so freely and anytime, suddenly has to be strictly occasionally consumed only.
say for example, you all know i LOVE ice cream...
she is like ice cream to me, and i feel like i'm on a strict diet...
i want her, i crave her.. the frenzy... the withdrawal.. and when shes around, i feel like licking her? because shes ice cream you see, haha...
once i get to have a bit of her, its so gooooood and satisfying and good and great and awesome and ecstasy( edward colin " you're like my own personal brand of heroine", yes from twilight.) liked? then i want more and more and more and more and MORREE.
the addiction roams me.
is it wrong to have a naked photo of her as my phone's background?
and my phone is a touch screen...
nah, i'm only joking... i don't have any naked pictures of her...
honestly.
i dont.
really.
seriously.
ANYWAYS.....
i'm currently blasting music very loudly through my massively bassful headphones...
it feels awesome, though i have a feeling i might regret it in the morning...hm..
LOL, i'm listening to the song " if you see kay" from the script.. and i just drifted off for a little bit and i thought he was spelling F-U-C-K...
i wrote this on my facebook but i would like to repeat it right here... i need to express my mind for the day and it will NOT be completed without this
"all the asian employees of cabramatta centerlink can go fuck themselves. y be so bias for.. y give a hard time for... just coz ur on the other side of the desk, doesnt mean u can be bias, y the fuck are asians in service so hard ass on other asians in need. if u dont like to deal with people, go to another career path. and if u roll ur fucking eyes at me once more i will rip them out."
no, i'm not violent at all....
