i am most energetic when the sun is down.. i would want to go out, have fun, sing.. pump some music.. flash some lights... bite some girls?
no, not a vampire but i do fancy a bite.
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anyway....
um, what did i get up to todaaaay...?
all i know is that i was surrounded by babies, i was not responsible for any of them, thank god.
my god son was born at 11:28am this morning and he is FUCKING ADORABLE!!! so spent half the day with them...( was in the birth delivery room with rosey and saw the whole thing, now i don't think i'll be having sex for a while, at least until i can get that scary image out of my mind, argh so messy..)
came home and picked up little Mr Harry over to play at my house...
and then my neighbours baby joined Harry as well...
then i went to visit my cousin at the hospital and her newborn!!!! HE IS ALSO FUCKING ADORABLE!!... actually he is a very handsome kid..
baby count for the day: 4...
oh, and also one of my friends gave birth a few weeks back.. and going to go visit them on saturday...
... i was thinking about moving out today, like to either rent a apartment or house, or buy a apartment or house...
but i very much doubt i can last in an apartment, i'm not a apartment kind of person....
i'm a house person, with a back and front yard... grass.. open air... basically, space.
i need my space, and in a house it is important to have yards and etc because if i get sick of one area(or person standing in one area), i can move to the next.. and the privacy, and the noise travel... etc etc, but i enjoy outside.
and Jane suggested that i move in with her in the city...and i just said no to that without even hesitating,
number 1, moving out means i need my own space, and my life/day consist of Jane and family.. thats why i want my own space..
number 2, i don't like apartments
number 3, i don't want to live IN the city... it is expensive and its too busy. i rather live out of the city and go to the city once in a very long while.
now that most people know that i want to move out, especially Jane.. she will try everything in her power to try and make me let her live with me. seriously hun, it ain't gonna happen.
i think it's healthier that we have time apart...
so with that said, i don't know if i am going to have a room or house mate... i might depending on the situation and the person.
still thinking,
let me know if you are thinking about moving out and if you think that you can live with me... you know how i are..
do you mind that i bring people home (probably won't, rather not)?
do you mind that i don't come home so often?
do you mind if i just lay around the house allllll weeeeekkk long?
i can cook... and clean.. and garden... and do handyman work.
do you mind if i'm noisy? especially at odd times... i do have manners though, so if you are sleeping then i'd keep it down..
.. well thats me in a minute, can you handle it? ahhaha...
oh crap, just remembered that i'm getting married.
default roommate right there.
marriage so isn't going to work, i love girls too much, and i can't seem to commit.
BLAH...
sometimes i feel pedo, when i check out those school girls... those pretty looking ones in their school skirts (well not all in skirts.... ).. and then i realise , one that they are not wearing the blue shirts(means they are not yet seniors).. and two, they are still in school.
i am 20, turning 21 very shortly... and it's been 3 years since high school... and it feels wrong for me to be checking school girls out...
some says it was ok because i am just looking, but hey if i didn't feel wrong about it, don't you reckon i'd go for it already and not just look? duh.
and another reason they say it's ok because i am a girl, so not like i can impregnate anyone...(good point, but still).
like, i don't know why.. but i feel weird when i do check out these girls...
they never look their age, and it can be so misleading or should i say, THEY can be so misleading...
i always spin out when i do talk to a girl that is out of uniform and i find out her age....
like, oh i'm 16..... and i'm like.. what?!! 16? huni, shouldn't you be in school?.. no i didn't really say that but thats what i thought, every time.
i get taken back when they say they are under 18, though some times i in part except 17... and i don't know why, like i guess because can be 18 soon and i can get to know them until then... BUT!!!!!!.. no no no.. that never ever happens. teen girls... teen-curious girls..... and boys too i guess, are freaking horny machines.
so i leave.
tell me, how do you find it.
i feel confused.
anyways, off to sleeeeeeep.... my eye is getting better, need more rest.
